It's that time again!!!

I can't believe it! Another school semester is about to start! I am both excited and sad. Excited because I love the feeling of starting a new adventure and of course the feel of a new pen and cracking open a fresh new notebook! (I am such a nerd for school and office supplies). I am sad because the start of a new semester means the end of my days of leisure! I am best when there is structure, so I suppose that this is a good thing. I can't believe that I have been in school for almost 2 years! I used to dream of the day that I would start, and now I am well on my way. I am really so very grateful for the opportunity to learn and grow through experiencing higher education. I know that only 20% of high school students will go on to obtain more education, so I count myself among the lucky few! I have made one of my short-term resolutions to make my grades this semester the best grades so far! Wish me luck!

When the little ones head to school

The new school year is quickly approaching and so begins a new era for our family! My littlest munchkin goes off to Kindergarten this fall! I can't believe that she has grown so quickly! As I held her today I paid special attention to all the changes. Was she this heavy when she went to her Dad's last week? She definitely looks taller, I do believe. Has she always been so grown up? Ahh... I sigh, my little girl is quickly becoming less little. Maybe if I put a few pretty bows in her hair it will slow down the process? No, No.. it just isn't "cool" mom. Well then I will just take a few seconds longer to let her go from the hugs, and kiss her still plump cheeks a few extra times perhaps. Why do little ones grow so fast??
My other two children haven't made this any easier. My son has grown by leaps and bounds and informs me that this year he will need to be dropped off before we get to the school door, and my oldest daughter is more interested in the 'tween' clothing choices than the more girlie options that I would have picked. Training bras? Oh dear, I think maybe that is more training for Mommies that need a chance to get ready for the puberty that is coming. So many big changes this school year.
It hasn't even started and I already have a list of things to prepare for this school year! But when you are a working, schooling, crazy mom of three... well lists are your life and anything not planned a month in advance is just procrastination! To all you Moms out there.. I am so there!!! Good luck to you all! I know that I am going to need all I can get!

I am struggling today with the weight of my own world on my shoulders. I don't mean to whine, but today it feels pretty heavy. I am trying to be a good mom, meet standards at my job, and actively learn at school. So far, it isn't going well. The sad part is this is only the beginning. It gets harder from here!! I am trying so hard to be a better time manager, but I am constantly thwarted in my attempts by one thing or another. There has to be a way to stop the madness!!!! If only my body would run 24/7 I wouldn't even have a problem! Unfortunately for me, my body breaks down on a regular basis instead of running hard and fast like I need it to. Keeping my head above water isn't as easy as I thought it would be! I have a plan though. I know that I need to cut out anything that isn't absolutely necessary, so I am starting to de-clutter my life. I really hope that it does the trick!
Staying in school is my dream and I intend to see it through! I just have to keep going and keep from giving up. I have so many supportive and encouraging people in my life. I know that I can do this, I just have to find the right formula! The saying goes 'where there is a will, there is a way'. I don't know who says it, but I believe it to be true. I just have to refine the focus of the will and find the way that works for me. Success is my only option!

School

I am frustrated about school today. I am attempting to make out my schedule of classes and I have to admit that I am more than a bit frustrated. I am trying to figure out how to juggle my classes and my kids and my job. No matter what I do to twist my schedule around it just isn't perfect. I will have to have some kind of compromise somewhere. Arrgghhh!!!! I hate to complain because I am really grateful to be in school.. but ARRGHH!!! Seriously I need an EASY button from Staples!
I have to give a shout out to all of the other students that are trying to better their lives while still trying to fully support themselves and possibly a family as well. It isn't easy and I think that we should start some type of support group or club or something to give people someone to talk to or relate to during all this. I mean wouldn't you want someone who could understand what you are going through? I know I would! My family does a great job, but I hate to vent to them. My parents do so much to help me but I don't want them to worry just because I need to talk about something that is stressing me. A support group would be just the thing!
I am sure that someday I will look back on all this and think it wasn't so bad, but right now I am cranky and tired so it is! Oh well, it is all for a good cause.. my family's future that is!

College

So as I mentioned, I am a college student. I love being in school! I am not a great student and my grades right now are just average, but I am loving the experience! I am so grateful to have the opportunity to get an education! I mean to be honest how many people get this chance? Especially when you are 31 years old with kids?? I have to say that I am truly blessed. Once I graduate I will be the first of my parents children to finish school. I look forward to this. I know that it will make my parents very proud. I also really want to do this for myself and my children. I want to be able to provide a better life for my family. I want a nice home with a yard and enough room for all my children to have space to grow. I want something more than our two bedroom two bath apartment. I can't wait to have skills to offer an employer! I have always had to just learn on the fly doing the best that I could and just being a hard worker to impress my bosses. When I get done with school, not only will I still be a hard worker, but I will bring something to the table this time. I will have valuable skills and knowledge to offer an employer.

At times I become so frustrated! Fellow students out there I am sure that you can relate! If I don't do well on an assignment or if I feel that my work won't measure up to my fellow students' then I feel a bit down, but I keep on plugging along. I didn't start this to drop out. As they say I am In it to Win it! I won't quit and I cheer for any other students trying to make this happen. We can do it! We are part of the 20% of the group that actually makes it to an institution of higher learning. So I will hold my head up and throw my shoulders back and do what I must do to get what I want! Good luck to the rest of you as well!!!!